I want to share a conversation that Cody and I had the other night as we were on our way home from a barbecue with some friends. I asked him, “Do you think I’ve been happier lately?” He responded by saying, “Yeah, I do.” He then asked me, “Do you think you’ve felt happier lately?” And I said, “Most definitely.”
Now don’t get me wrong, I’ve always considered myself a generally happy person. I have numerous people tell me regularly that they love seeing my smiling face, and if I’m not smiling, they know something must be wrong. And behind that smile I genuinely do believe I’m a generally happy person.
Sure, I’ve had my hard times, but I can’t complain much about life. God has given me an incredibly supportive family, a loving husband, wonderful friends, and so many other blessings that I don’t always feel like I deserve.
It’s been different lately though. Different in a good way. My mind isn’t constantly consumed by all of the worries and stresses that used to consume my thoughts related to my weight, calories, jeans size, etc. I’ve been able to enjoy some of the foods I used to deprive myself of, I have developed a new love for yoga and other low intensity exercise that I never used to imagine myself enjoying, and I don’t obsess about whether my thighs and booty have grown every time I look in the mirror.
As we continued to talk, Cody went on to say, “It was so nice to see you go get a second brownie, enjoy it, and not beat yourself up about it at the barbecue tonight.” That really stuck with me. How sad that I used to be so hard on myself about a brownie?! (Oh, and just to be clear, we’re not talking about these brownies, we’re talking about the “real deal” aka sugar/oil/chocolate kind of brownies.)
Don’t get me wrong, I still have my days where it’s not easy for me. This whole ordeal isn’t a piece of cake by any means. However, I think I’ve come to terms with the fact that I’m thankful for having to go through this struggle. That may be hard to understand, but the growth that I’ve experienced through this has been unbelievable.
And what’s really cool? I’m less irritable. I’m less stressed. I’m more positive. I have more fun. I laugh more. I’m overall happier.
I challenge you to rethink your priorities in life. Are your thoughts consumed with healthy thoughts? Or do you beat yourself up about things that really don’t matter? Challenge yourself this week by thinking about and doing things that genuinely make you happy. Not stressed. Not trying to please others. Not pressuring yourself. But happy!
- Have you ever gone through a struggle that you felt like you grew from?
- Do you feel like what I’m talking about in this post is something you need/want to work on?
- What makes YOU truly happy?