As I mentioned on Saturday, I’ve been battling this head cold for the past several days. I’m finally feeling a little better (hallelujah!), but in the midst of it all I couldn’t help but think about how I used to respond when I didn’t feel well. Then my thoughts led to how I used to think and do a lot of things differently before my struggle with Hypothalamic Amenorrhea. I thought I had it all figured out and that I was being healthy, when in reality, I wasn’t most of the time.
Then – When I didn’t feel well, I pushed my body to do a workout no matter what.
Now – When I don’t feel well, I rest my body and don’t stress it out even more.
Then – I counted calories to make sure I didn’t go over my (very low and unhealthy) allotted amount.
Now – I (occasionally) count calories to make sure I get enough calories to maintain my weight and stay healthy.
Then – I always felt I had a “few pounds to lose” and was insecure about my body.
Now – I weigh more than I did before, and I feel more confident than ever.
Then – I didn’t even look at whole milk, let alone taste it.
Now – I love it in my coffee and the occasional bowl of cereal.
Then – I kept running even if my muscles were screaming at me.
Now – I take a leisurely walk and do some yoga if I am feeling sore.
Then – I felt anxious about going on vacation, wondering if I would be able to get my workouts in.
Now – I live it up, exercise if I feel like it, and enjoy the down time.
Then – I ignored my hunger cues if I felt hungry at an abnormal time.
Now – I eat when I feel hungry with no guilt.
Then – I craved sugar and nut butter almost all the time (because I wasn’t getting enough nutrients and fats in my diet).
Now – I enjoy nut butter but rarely ever crave it like I used to, and my sugar cravings are very rare.
Then – I never looked at “walking” as my cardio exercise. It had to be running, spinning, or something high intensity.
Now – Walking is the majority of my cardio exercise.
Then – My feet and knees were constantly in pain.
Now – My feet and knees have never felt better.
Then – I would schedule my day around my workout.
Now – My workout is a priority, but I don’t obsess over it. I fit it in where I can.
It amazes me looking back at how I used to treat my body. And I thought this was healthy living? What planet was I living on? I’m so thankful that I’ve learned so much about my body and healthy living through this process. Because I’m so stubborn, I don’t know if I would have ever learned this on my own without going through HA.
- Do you have any “then vs. now” lessons that you’ve learned along the way?
- Can you relate to any of the above?