I’ve had several readers email me over the past few months asking me how I deal with the unknown and handle anxiety, so I thought I’d share my current situation with you all and how I’m dealing with it. The details I’ve chosen to leave out are for a variety of reasons, but I hope to keep you updated as time goes on. I appreciate your understanding!
So if you don’t know this already, I’m pretty darn Type A. This means I’m determined, a go-getter, a hard worker, (mostly) organized, and a planner. BUT it also means that I’m too hard on myself, I worry too much what others think, I’m a perfectionist, I struggle with anxiety, and I hate when things are outside of my control. I’m not saying every person with a Type A personality is like this, but it certainly describes me.
All of that being said, the unknown scares me. Like, a lot. I get anxious, I worry about every little “what if” that could go wrong, and I stress myself out over things that are completely out of my control. Hmm, doesn’t sound like the best way to handle things, does it?
God has been teaching me a lot within the past year. My experience with hypothalamic amenorrhea was where it all started. Even though it was rough, I wouldn’t take that experience back for anything. It’s like God was sitting me down, telling me to chill out, and to just trust in Him. Easier said than done though, right?! Needless to say, it wasn’t an easy journey, but I’m certainly a changed person for the better from it.
Now here I am confronted with yet another huge unknown. Cody is in the midst of changing careers (I’m so proud of him!) which means some big changes for our little family. We could potentially be relocating which leaves tons of other details up in the air as well. It’s scary not knowing where we could be living in three months or if Cody will even get the job he is hoping for. Throw a new baby into the mix, and I’d say we’re in for a pretty big ride the next few months.
I’ve realized in the midst of all of this unknown that I have two choices: 1) Turn into a crazy person and stress myself out which does absolutely nothing to help the situation; 2) Be open minded, trust that God is in the center of it all, and know that everything always works out for the best.
I’m actually pretty proud of how I’ve been handling it all the past couple months. Cody even turned to me the other day and told me how impressed he was with how I’ve been dealing with all the upcoming changes. That meant a lot to me considering he hardly stresses about anything (so unfair! ). I’ve had my occasional breakdowns and bouts of anxiety, but they’re fewer and further between than they ever would have been a year ago. I’ve learned to embrace the unknown rather than make myself a hot mess over it. It helps to look at it as a fun adventure than a bunch of scary “what ifs”.
Of course I’m a work in progress, and embracing the unknown is something I’ll always have to work extra hard at, but I refuse to make my life miserable because I’m constantly stressed and anxious. I truly do believe shifting our perspective and giving it to God is what makes all the difference. Life is full of unknowns, so why not embrace them, right?
- What is your personality like?
- Do you have a difficult time embracing the unknown?